I probably have the strangest and worst reasons for being a monarchist. Because of situations in my childhood I was forced to spend much time alone in my school's library. I was very interested in history and very advanced for my age. By 6th grade I was studying advanced political theory and by 8th grade I had read everything from Marx to Plato to the leaders of the French Revolution to Locke and beyond. I detested even from that age the idea of majority rule as chaotic. I saw that people in groups tended towards destruction and the worst things possible, so that left to themselves a society would collapse. This fear drew me especially to the writings of Benito Mussolini and by 10th grade I had read and could repeat word for word all of the original documents of the Italian Fascist Party. I also had in-depth arguments to defend these views and at one point debated three of my teachers at once on the topic and came out victorious. I realized, however, that the one thing about the ideology which bothered me was the one reason why I had to abandon it: it made the State into the individual leader in a way which was almost a form of idolatry. I knew that this could not be true so I left it (but, I must say, although I am ashamed to admit it, that even to this day I find many of his arguments very powerful and convincing) and started searching for a new concept. I could not shake myself of the notion of the necessity of a powerful State, no matter how hard I tried. Those who advocated State's rights and democracy I considered to be fools but I parroted their beliefs in the hope that I could just get rid of my previous notions. I couldn't. By my senior year in high school I had studied the European monarchies in Advanced Placement history and political science classes and knew that this is where I had to be: it had the force of history, religion, logic, and state rule behind it. When I read a quote from Aquanius saying it was the best form of government I knew I had found my place. I also realized I didn't have to give up my hatred of republicanism and constitutionalism because Absolutism had everything I desired in a political ideology and a socioeconomic system. That is why I am a monarchist now.