i cant do more research, it means exposing myself.

i cant get any excercise, i cant live.

dreams and goals are irrelevant when you end up not being able to feel anything good, which means i would have to block out everything, meaning i couldnt do anything, or have the power on or the heat on, which isnt even possible

i cant win, there isnt a place i can be

my parents dont believe how bad this all is, they will either just end up being devastated one way or another, i will either try to increase supplements and vitamins on what i believe will help / counteract what is causing things or i wont be able to handle this, like every extra second i am on here and end my life

i have written out enough now online and on paper that people will at least have a good research case study, as detailed as i could make it in this state.

i guess i will increase my vitamin C and serotonin today and my melatonin at night

matt

i write on paper when i can think clearly enough

computer is only thing that keeps me from feeling secluded/isolated 100% and it isnt only thing that gives me symptoms

anyway, i am upping the amounts of supplements i'm taking, carefully, with predictions / forethought / reasoning

i hope all goes well..

matt

The dogs and the poodle

Three handsome male dogs were walking down the street when they saw a  beautiful, enticing, 
female Poodle.  The three male dogs fall all  over themselves in an effort to be the one to reach her 
first, but end  up arriving in front of her at the same time. The males are speechless  before her 
beauty, slobbering on themselves and hoping for just a  glance from her in return. Aware of her 
charms and her obvious effect  on the three suitors, she decides to be kind and tells them: "The 
first  one who can use the words 'liver' and 'cheese' together in an  imaginative, intelligent 
sentence - can go out with me."
  
  The sturdy, muscular black Lab speaks up quickly and says, "I love  liver and cheese." "Oh, how 
childish," said the Poodle. "That shows no  imagination or intelligence whatsoever."
  
  She turns to the tall, shiny Golden Retriever and says "How well can you do?"
  "Um. I HATE liver and cheese," blurts the Golden Retriever. "My, my,"  said the Poodle. "I guess 
it's hopeless. That's just as dumb as the  Lab's sentence."
  
  She then turns to the last of the three dogs and says, "How about you, little guy?"
  The last of the three, tiny in stature but big in fame and finesse, is  the Taco Bell Chihuahua. 
He gives her a smile, a sly wink, turns to the  Golden Retriever and the Lab and says ... "Liver 
alone. Cheese mine."
  

EMS causes anxiety, different degrees of it -- it amplifies emotions, and yes, the EMF/EMS is driving me berzerk, it's disrupting my brain.

The symptoms are slowly diminishing though, slowly.

And right now I am in Kingston, because downtown Toronto has too much.

Matt

Anyway, I had read the EFT site before, didn't realize I did until I went to it before.

I don't see a connection to what I have unless I am allergic to the SSRI salts -- but I am sure they have their own unique frequency, and I do believe that frequency is what has been causing havoc / allowing havoc to happen and disruptions of other frequencies to happen.

I'm not skeptical that it works for certain sensitivites, though I'm not sure it would work or be possible to work in my case ?

Increasing my serotonin and other supplements seems to be allowing my body to slowly heal, and also taking sea salt, etc..

Matt

Hi Kat, ((( Smiles )))

Wow.. I read Camille's story.. Yes.. I think Toxins are responable for alot of things.. This planet has been so polluted it's not in it's natural state of being anymore..

I mean.. It can be such a beautifull place all the plant's and tree's the blue skys when they are not brown from pollution and smog..

All these toxins are just so unnatural to be found all in one place blowing out of a smoke stack into ones lungs..

Mercury as I have read is in very small quanity's in nature and not suppose to be given to people in huge dosages their bodys can't fight in the air and water..  

It's just to much thoses days in huge dose's and we can get sick from it. We're destroying our habitate..

I agree with the sentence on that board how are bodies are capabile of healing.. With the right treatment. With even getting rid of toxins it's just so slow and we are forever exposed I just don't know how the body is capabile of overcomeing all that as well.

And sometimes.. It is to much of an overload and we can't overcome it all.

It's like with hyperacusis.. I know for many the body is capabile of getting better with ones condition.. Healing does go on..

I think the body want's to fix itself but it doesn't allways have the tools it needs to do so..

It's just really hard in this world with pollution, toxins, noise pollution , chemicals.. just.. so much to overcome...

But we all try.. We are all looking for that thing.. Whatever we can do to help ourselves in whatever way we can..

I think toxins and the lymphatic system is a good area to start from to build up from in conjection with everything else we need to do in liveing in the situations we find ourselves and the world in...

I enjoyed reading Camillie's story....